I hate myself for writing this blog.

I can honestly say that I despise myself for writing this blog post today. I really do. 
I hate what I'm inevitably going to talk about, and I hate what I'm doing right now. All in all, I'm mad at myself for even touching on this subject, because I don't want everyone.......
scratch what I was about to say.
I don't want to admit to myself that I feel this way.
I feel weak.
And I know I'm not, but that's how I feel. 


So let's get this party started. 
I'm just going to go on this long rant, so if you don't feel like hearing it, you can go. It's going to be long.


I hate people. I hate everything that's considered human. 
I hate men.
I hate women.
I hate gossip,
liars,
bitches,
drama,
old people,
little children that scream in the grocery store.
I hate everything human.


Why?


Because humans as a whole, are narcissistic bastards. Self obsessed, egotistical, catty, assholes.
Self serving,
self pleasing,
always wondering "what's in it for you"
assholes.
No one takes the time to think about how any of their actions are going to affect anyone around them.
Case and point, 
RELATIONSHIPS.
I hate relationships, you know why? They lead you to believe a lie. 
Men especially. 
Girls are more influenced by their emotions, and how it makes them feel. 
(Not necessarily the other person. Women wont hurt someone because they don't want to feel guilty. )
But men...
more interested in thinking with the hose between their legs.
At the beginning of this blog, I was sad. I'll admit. I'm thinking of how I've been repetitively FUCKED over by people. 
And I'm not sad anymore. 
I'm mad. 


I put my heart and soul into trying. I have. I make sure people know their worth to me, and it's obvious that I don't mean shit to any of you. 
Does anyone even read this fucking blog??
No?
Didn't fucking think so. 
Why...?
Oh right, you're all too busy waiting for the next available cum-bucket to meander in front of you.


It's funny... I wonder how many of you had sex today. How many of you are fucking over people who care about you, because you're not thinking. 
Cheating?
Oh remember, that's okay these days.
The words "I love you".
No, those 3 words don't mean shit. 
It's space filler for a conversation.


Call me old fashioned, but I thought you actually had to SHOW someone you loved them if you said you did. 
Talk is cheap.












I sent a text earlier, talking about how you never know if it's going to be your last day on earth. 
You never know if you'll never wake up.
So don't you think,
that if you ACTUALLY
love someone,
you should let them know?
You might never see them again.
They could die tonight in their sleep.
You might never see the person you "love" again.
But have you told them you love them?
No?
That's crazy.
You're taking that chance.
What if they're kidnapped.
What if they're suicidal right now?


DID YOU EVER


CONSIDER, 


THAT MAYBE THE PERSON YOU SAID YOU LOVED, IS SITTING ALONE IN THEIR ROOM, 


CRYING,


WONDERING IF IT'S EVEN WORTH IT TO BE AROUND TOMORROW.


DID YOU EVER STOP AND THINK ABOUT IT?


NO.


YOU'RE SITTING HERE.


READING THIS.


WHERE'S THE PERSON YOU LOVE.


WHY AREN'T THEY WITH YOU.


YOU MIGHT NEVER SEE THEM AGAIN, 


YET YOU'RE BROWSING AROUND THE INTERNET.




Some people have too much pride.


Like, say you love your ex.


But you wont admit you love them, or talk to them, because your pride is holding you back.


Again, back to the "ALL ABOUT ME" shit.


Think about this.


YOU
MIGHT
NEVER
SEE
THEM
AGAIN.






EVER.




Why don't they know you love them? They could die in the next 2 minutes. 
If they aren't with you,
why aren't you on the phone with them?


If you actually love someone,
make sure you let them know. 
Every second of every day.
Don't fuck around, and mess with people's hearts. Because everyone deserves to be loved. 
And being a player, 
starting drama,
keeping hold of your pride,
is going to end up costing you more than anyone else.




I'm fucking sick of humanity. Do you guys honestly realize how messed up you are?
How narcissistic, 
and unrealistic you all are?
I think you don't fully understand the situation.

STOP TELLING PEOPLE YOU LOVE THEM IF YOU DON'T.


STOP TELLING PEOPLE YOU CARE, 


IF YOU DON'T.


STOP FUCKING AROUND WITH PEOPLE'S HEARTS.


STOP BEING WHORES. 


STOP BEING PLAYERS.


I'm sick of how you all go about relationships like it's a game. Fuck that.
It's not.
In a study, it says that it takes half the time you dated a person to get over them completely.


So say you dated for a year. 


You have 6 months of solitude,
before you return to the dating game with a fresh head.


And half the time is the minimum.


So why are you guys running around having little makeout parties right after you've broken up with someone?
It's shallow.
Ever heard of a rebound?
You're messing with your own head and heart.


DON'T PRETEND IT DOESN'T HURT SOMEONE.


I'm so sick. 
It honestly disgusts me how you can be this way. 
Ugh.
















































SO I'm going to go to bed now. 
I'm going to lay in my bed and rip myself apart some more, 
wondering how anyone could be that cruel,
much less everyone.

Humanity sucks. 
Goodnight, everyone. I'm sorry... tomorrow will be happier. 


Goodnight.